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If He Had Been With Me Soundtrack:

Phase 1: The Childhood "What Ifs"

These tracks capture that deep, foundational bond—the "Mothers," the shared rain, and the feeling that they were always supposed to be a "we."

• 1. "Somewhere Only We Know" – Keane

  • The Vibe: Reflecting on the "Mothers" and the sacred childhood bond they shared.

• 2. "Cardigan" – Taylor Swift

  • The Vibe: The core "Autumn and Finny" anthem. High school, rain, and bittersweet memories.

• 3. "Gilded Lily" – Cults

  • The Vibe: Represents the fragility of their relationship and the crushing pressure of expectations.

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Phase 2: The Outsider & The Ache

This section is for the middle of the book—the distance, the new girlfriends, and Autumn feeling like she’s watching his life from a window.

• 4. "Heather" – Conan Gray

  • The Vibe: For the moments when Autumn feels like an outsider to Finny’s new life.

• 5. "Liability" – Lorde

  • The Vibe: Captures Autumn’s internal struggle and the feeling of being "too much" for people.

• 6. "Driver’s License" – Olivia Rodrigo

  • The Vibe: For that specific feeling of driving past someone’s house and feeling the ghost of them.

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Phase 3: The Grief & The Aftermath

The songs for the ending. These are the ones that make the book’s conclusion feel like a physical weight.

• 7. "Everything I Own" – Bread

  • The Vibe: That desperate feeling of wanting to trade anything just to have someone back.

• 8. "Night We Met" – Lord Huron

  • The Vibe: The quintessential song for mourning a version of someone who no longer exists.

• 9. "Saturn" – Sleeping At Last

  • The Vibe: For the "what ifs" and the beauty of a life cut short.

• 10. "Fourth of July" – Sufjan Stevens

  • The Vibe: A hauntingly quiet track for the ending. Warning: Will cause tears.

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Note: Listening to Fourth of July and Saturn back-to-back is officially classified as emotional warfare. Proceed with caution.